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Ditta Baron Hoeber-

we will not

I

I cannot keep you. one can die first or be bereaved. there are no other choices. I listen to your words. but in myself I am silent. what is the anger that reappears and reappears but does not speak.

I cannot keep you. one can die first or be bereaved.

II

evening dream

two hands
reach
to rest on my shoulders.

the cat does that
reaches to my shoulders
with soft paws.

I can’t see your face.

III

affection

the picture crossed my consciousness as I was speaking. it was my chest pried open my heart a dark red pulsing thing.

IV

morning dream

the conversation is provocative

I lift my hand to still my chest
my hand
brushes against my breast

the room flies apart then slowly reassembles

V

will it be like death this absolute ending we will not sit together and speak again. (clothed in loss.) (would feel naked without) a picture of nakedness comes into my mind and my mind fills with pleasure.

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reach

I

my breasts. want to leap out of my shirt.

I have to smile at that. sad as I feel. I have to smile.

II

I dream of you now.

III

when you were within reach I missed my dead less. you covered all bases. wore all the hats I had. you are out of reach now so my ghosts gently return. and you. now you yourself haunt me.

IV

when I am dressing only the black clothes call me. comfort me make me quiet and invisible. portray my anger.

V

this ending feels incomplete perhaps all deaths are sudden deaths.
sudden. sudden as in unprepared for. as in what do I do next. as in. the floor has given way.

can I step upon the air. dare I.

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larchwood avenue

the label on the bottle has so much information. the date. her name. the doctor’s name. my mother mentioned that doctor repeatedly over the years. the name of the pharmacy which awakens nothing in me and the pharmacy address on larchwood.

larchwood avenue. I remember all the front yards in that part of the city the rose bushes and ivy and a tiny purple flower with a pointed yellow center. and iris leaning up against the iron fences. when I was small I tripped once walking past those fences. I fell and cut my chin. the cut took stitches but they weren’t made well so I still have the scar. but it is nothing.

was nothing. not a fright. nor is the little medicine bottle a fright. no. finally. it is information.

I unscrew the lid and look inside. a powder dusts the glass. I smell and the smell is dusty. nothing. but I hold it in my hand and this nothing is information. I hold it in my hand.

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(Untitled)

a heat of feeling overtakes me my eyes my folded hands.

a heat of feeling overtakes me my eyes my folded hands. my mind watches. you watch. you say I will be angry with myself if I don’t speak. my mind moves to the place with words.

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(Untitled)

I

yesterday dies
I am bereft

I’ve always believed
that others have it worse.

but mine is mine.

II

my father says yesterday is gone
I laugh and I say yesterday is always gone
the cab driver turns and says
–not always
and he offers his hand –give me your hand.
and I do and he laughs
–I just wanted to touch your skin.

III

yesterday
the news was bad

so I fixed things.

I fixed what I could.

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Ditta Baron Hoeber is an artist and a poet. Her recent poetry publications have been in The American Poetry Review, Construction Magazine, the American Journal of Poetry, New American Writing, Per Contra along with a suite of her photographs, Calypso Friends and Nthposition. She has been nominated this year for a Pushcart Prize.

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Image of bird by contemporary artist, Courtney Smith
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